[[1493-03-26|26 Ches 1493 >>]] ## 19 Ches 1493 It's hard to believe how close we're getting to Waterdeep. As much as I've enjoyed the trip, I'm looking forward to staying in one town for a while, especially because the last place I occupied for longer than a month was Valentia. And don't get me wrong, Valentia was nice; it had Skoll and his garden and everyone else for a while. But the place has ⁠even less going on with it than Beacon Cairn did, and that's saying something. Ireena told me today that she won't be returning to Valentia either; she's going to be traveling with Nia and Selise instead. I was happy for her, even if she seemed a little apprehensive about it for a few reasons, the foremost being that she doesn't quite know how Nia feels about her. Ireena has been holding onto this crush since Barovia, which is something I definitely sympathize with. I think it will turn out well in any case ⁠— Nia and Selise allowed her to come with, which is a step in the right direction, at least in my experience. Nia wasn't the only person on Ireena's mind, though. Skoll didn't take the news very well ⁠— not exactly unexpected. What I didn't expect is that he'd be so resistant to the idea of moving away himself. I tried talking to Skoll about leaving Valentia after I cut his hair earlier. I even offered to build him a house about it, but he adamantly refused to stop being in bad mood. He kept making excuses, too. I made sure not to mention that he was reminding me of Rictavio, but he seemed to get annoyed at me all the same. It might have had something to do with me stealing like five of the damage control chocolates that Ireena bought him, but still. I'm sure he'll come around; Skoll is certainly stubborn, but he loves his friends. He'll want to be closer to us, even if it means trusting that he's fulfilled his promise to Godfrey. In other news, Rictavio's been "getting back into herbalism," which means that he went out and bought a bunch of common plants from the store today. I told him that he's going with me in the morning to gather herbs ⁠— he seemed appreciative, even if he kept saying that he doesn't know how much help he'll be (which, no shit, that's why I'm going to be helping him in the first place). Our conversation somehow ⁠— as it is often seems to ⁠— found its way to the topic of Ezmerelda. I'm used to Rictavio being...invested, in how we're doing, but today he took it to new heights. He brought up marriage, and his services as a cleric, and how he knows some good florists in Waterdeep. I was glad Ezmerelda wasn't around, because I think she might have murdered him. I'd be lying if I said that marriage ⁠— as a concept ⁠— hasn't ever been on my mind. And I'd be lying if I said that I've never wondered how Ezmerelda feels about it, too. As a concept. When Rictavio tells me that I make Ezmerelda happy, it's hard not to believe it; she seems to be in a generally better mood as of late, and she clearly likes me enough to keep me around. Still, I have no fucking clue if marriage is something that Ezmerelda would ever be interested in. The idea of bringing it up is kind of a terrifying one. ~~Which shouldn't be too surprising, considering that I've been too chickenshit to even tell her that I love her.~~ But the whole thing doesn't bother me much, especially if I don't think about it. I saved her a strawberry cupcake from the ones that Ireena bought today. She was grateful, and I got a kiss later for my troubles. I'd be hard pressed to complain about my life right now, basically. The fact of the matter is that Ezmerelda makes me very happy. I'm content to follow her wherever she goes regardless of if we put a name to it, and Ezmerelda seems content with that too. --- ## Page Tags/Properties **Tags:** #Journal **Category:** [[Journals and Writings.base|Journals and Writings]] **Character:** [[Krue d'Avenir|Krue]] **Campaign:** [[City of Eyes]] **Date ([[Calendar of Harptos|Harptos]]):** 03/19/1493